No pain, no gain

No pain no gain.

This is so cliched...yet so true. And i just have to keep suffering the consequences of defying this golden rule time and again. And one by one they played out in the course of my studies....

Jap language ==> 一塌糊塗! 結果放棄了。
ICC project half fuck effort ==> buang-ed
EDA research paper 3 day effort ==> buang-ed
ACCA ==> skipped the whole consolidated CFS chapter...and it had to came out in the compulsory section...50 marks buang-ed

Seems like i've always been lucky in anything except studies & love life..ha. Maybe cos haven't had enough pain to see any 'gains' yet. But as of now, i tot wat i've been thru was painful enough already :(

Suddenly brings me back to more than a year ago. I rem how i got depressed after putting on 10kg during summer, and went on a highly disciplined 30km/week running regime. One whole month of torture...10kg lost on the treadmill. I felt like a brand new man again! Quite ironic how some people see weight loss as a 'gain' in their lives. Maybe i no longer view it that way anymore..which explains why i'm in such a rolly-polly state now *blubs*.

走捷徑, 必失敗。

接下來的日子裏，在學業或事業方面，我還是得不斷提醒自己，回顧挫折，以免重蹈覆轍。

有時候，因為學業與工作環境都是以英文為溝通語言，偶爾寫自己的中文名，忽然會對那三個字覺得陌生。看了一下，似乎覺得那不是自己的名字，有一種很奇怪陌生的感覺。

林毅佳。

中間的那一個字，真的是要寫上幾千萬遍，才能真正叫做自己的名字, I guess.


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