Friday, September 21, 2007

So what's been filling my life...

It's already been 5 weeks into the first semester of my third year in SMU. It somehow didn't feel like a typical smu term to me. I feel like I'm a freshman all over again, making up for those lost golden days that were squandered away to a failed relationship and a family crisis back then. And what do i mean by this, I've been very active in student activities again..trying out new sports like sailing, applying for another year-end OCIP, picking up my squash rackets and heading back into the courts as a player n not worrying so much about managerial issues of the club anymore.

Images of my internship stint, my HK and Tioman trip during summer are slowly being obscured by the sheer mundane routines that are passing on in life. But I still look back at those beautiful and memorable photos and smile.

At this point of time, I feel as though I'm walking across Savannah terrain, life painted by a palette of dull colors slowly fading away with the sandy wind. I feel like i've escaped from a nearby prison, walking across the barren ground with my shackles still on, thirsting for the first sight of life.

As always, I'm still doin' 5 modules this term, but somehow it didn't feel quite like a heavy basket at all so far. And then I asked myself if I had been an excellent time manager, or whether I've turned into a complete ignorant slacker. I haven't quite found the motivation to get down to some serious academic stuffs, so i'm a slacker for now.

In this span of 5 weeks, life is as mundane as the following:

- a fitness and diet regime that's slowly losing discipline
- squashing sesions
- many many career talks that's making me feel a little directionless
- endless facebook surfing
- Chionging weekly FAM assignments with my fella course mates
- dwelling in deep thoughts over someone as distant as a faraway galaxy
- random reading...(kafka on the shore, 朱自清 proses)


~still searching for more colors in my sad little palette...

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