GREASE is goooooooooood!

Just came back from Grease, the musical. Fantastic show that completely breaks the monotony of my pathetic pre-exam life....

(pictures from http://www.greasethemusical.co.uk/)

So refreshing hearing those popular tunes again... although i tink the show would've been even better if it were held at the Esplanade....S'pore Indoor Stadium's really got bad acoustics man.

I must say it nearly is as good as the movie with all the 50s Rydell High ah-bengs and ah-lians. But of course the Danny & Sandy on stage are no match against our favorite John Travolta and Olivia Newton John. The dancing and the singing were damn good though.

And then it reminded myself of my pathetic all-dicks secondary school days and a non-stop mugging jC life where those cheesy lines from the show couldn't work on any of our rafflesian untouchables....This is Singapore....sad really.

Sheesh, the "We Go Together" song is still ringing in my head now....can't afford to daydream anymore....now it's just me and my books going together....

*bish*


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想飞

my life continues to be mundane...in this part of the world, right here right now.

*wonder how's mike doin' on his bike trip now....should be on his way to washington d.c liao i guess...wish i can have something liddat as well...

i just wanna break free.



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Commitments after exams

Ok, this is just to remind myself of my major commitments for the remaining of the holz after my exams:

1) Work@Alliance cold storage
2) Squash Exco 06-07 general meeting
3) NDP ushering (5 saturdays gone...)
4) SMU Econs Freshmen's Orientation 'OIKOS'
5) WEekly mahjong sessions


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song #6

Waiting in Vain
by Annie Lennox



From the very first time I rest my eyes on you, boy
My heart said follow through.
But I know now that I'm way down on your line
But the waiting feeling's fine

So don't treat me like a puppet on a string
'Cause I know how to do my thing
Don't talk to me as if you think I'm dumb
I wanna know when you're gonna come

See-
*I don't wanna wait in vain for your love
I don't wanna wait in vain for your love
I don't wanna wait in vain for your love
'Cause summer is here
And I'm still waiting there
Winter is here
I'm still waiting there

Like I said-
It's been three years since I'm knocking on your door
And still I can knock some more
Ooh, boy, ooh, boy, is it crazy? Look, I wanna know now
For I to knock some more

You see-
In life I know
That there is lots of grief
But your love is my relief
Tears in my eyes burn
Tears in my eyes burn
While I'm waitin'
While I'm waitin' for my turn

You see-
(*Repeat)

Like I said-
I don't wanna, I don't wanna
I don't wanna, I don't wanna
I don't wanna wait in vain
I don't wanna, I don't wanna
I don't wanna, I don't wanna
I don't wanna wait in vain

It's been three years since I'm knocking on your door
And still I can knock some more
Ooh, boy, ooh, boy, is it crazy? Look, I wanna know now
Like I said-
Tears in my eyes burn
Tears in my eyes burn
While I'm waiting
While I'm waiting for my turn

You see-
Ooh, boy, ooh, boy, is it crazy? Look, I wanna know now
For I to knock some more
In life I know there is lots of grief
But your love is my relief


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Album of the month (MAY)

Ok I decided since I'm just a wide listener to all kinds of music, i should at least recommend some of those albums which in my opinion are truly exceptional. So i shall begin my 'Album of the Month' today (backdate to May) with the following...Haven't heard such good stuff for so long....





1. No More 'I Love You's
2. Take Me To The River
3. A Whiter Shade Of Pale
4. Don't Let It Bring You Down
5. Train in Vain
6. I Can't Get Next To You
7. Downtown Lights
8. A Thin Line Between Love and Hate
9. Waiting in Vain
10. Something So Right


I guess what makes this album so stunning is the melancholic, waiting-in-vain kind of theme that is central to the whole album...coupled with Annie Lennox's fantastic vocals....and not to forget, most of the songs are written by big names such as Bob Marley, Neil Young, Paul Buchanan, Al Green and The Temptations.

Can't tell you how good this album is as a whole (every damn song!) until you hear it for yourself.


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i will survive...

it's so nice to see all my frens having the time of their lives in their own ways these summer holz.
Serene just came back from a her holiday in Spain & Portugal, Josh back from KL, Candice in Canada, Lihong in NZ (though i tink she won't agree she's having fun o'er there), Jianxiong going HK (or is he back already?), Kachun and finnie back from Europe, Ivan heading back to taiwan soon etc etc etc....

Perhaps it's all this envy that makes me feel imprisoned at home...that constant yearning to break free from the shackles of my self-inflicted misery...everyday i tell myself that my time will come..just how long more to go, i do not know....

As i look out of my window, i see children running happily across the school field, soaking up the warm sunshine, free as a bird...such a stark contrast from where i'm sitting....4 walls, metal grills on my window and bad ambience......but i'm sure the kids have their own problems too, something i've already been thru' during my days as a victim of the Singapore education system.

I guess the only way to seek some comfort is to tell myself my time will come when i can have all the freedom and fun i want in this world...it's just been delayed a little...by matters of dying importance...matters that require me to fulfil my moral duties, a bigger picture in life, a bigger investment of time and effort which i hope will eventually translate into fun and freedom too.

Everyday gets more hopeful. Mom made me breakfast...haven't had proper breakfast for a long time...thank you mom. I must persevere in my current endeavours...i must look at the brighter side of things....cos there're still people who're always by my side....thank you all.

I will survive...



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习惯

习惯

主唱: 孙耀威
词:何厚华 曲:黄国伦

天微凉孤单心各一方
你离开我的臂弯
是否依然无恙
习惯有你在什么事都不想
让空气渐渐弥漫
一种属于你淡淡芳香
然后地球忘记运转
世界只剩我们俩
为什么这样的梦想
却变成是遗憾

你说爱我只是习惯
再也不是喜欢
我给你的爱已不再温暖
只是你心中的忧伤
总是习惯隐藏
我和你之间隔着一道墙

如果爱终究要被遗忘
没有你
我会慢慢习惯

习惯
慢慢习惯


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today is the first day of the rest of my life.

how does it feel to be enclosed by 4 walls, stuck with two old folks at home and mentally compelled to read some poorly-handwritten notes telling you how to prepare prospective financial information?

it feels like imprisonment to me...or like being stranded on an island...or walking in a maze that keeps bringing you back to where you started....

and that feeling's exacerbated by a leaky tap...or more commonly known as a running nose...and then it gets more depressin' at the sight of the wastepaper basket filling up every 5 mins with soggy tissue.

and then comes the elixir...two paracetemol pills...and the leaky tap dries up instantly...and then i felt my feet left the ground...it felt good....could've been tempted to pop more of the p-pills and dive straight into bed, dissolve into my dreams...and perhaps wake up in another world....but i was dragged away from my bed by my moral duties....had to send my old man to his office....dreadful but I relented...

something's amiss today...really...i didn't have the energy to show my frustration to anyone... maybe just one or two bad driving manners on the road which is normal....it's the feeling similar to that when you're out of love...but then again, was i ever really in love? no energy to think any deeper into that issue.....the feeling is not one of depression..no melancholy no bad mood no nothing.....it's just one of emptiness.....i feel empty, right here right now....but then again maybe it's all psychologically conjured out of nothing...the unfathomable mind of Ernest at work again....

today is the first day of the rest of my life....




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when movie actors report to the wrong studios

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my friends

it's not easy to identify who are those you can truly call your friends in life....a fren in need is a fren indeed...cliched but always true...

maybe a simpler view towards frenship is perhaps a form of companionship which have somehow brought a postive difference to your life, regardless of age, gender, physical proximity, period of contact...some of them might have left this world already...but deep in your hearts, they will still be remembered as your gd frens....

Here's a summary of people whom i've treasured and will continue to treasure and remember deeply...i've not spoken to some of them for a very long time cos of the different paths we've taken ever since we parted from where we met....but i'll always remember those positive differences they brought to me in my life...and i'll always appreciate them. And i believe this list is not exhaustive...so for those whom i've left out, i know you'll always be there for me....

gd friends...whom i'm still talking to.

michael, kachun, ivan, joshua, youyi ..... and a couple more fr chinese high
lihong, jerry, keith, jon, candice, kelvin, zhenhui, huimin, ben...and more from my class in rj
jianxiong, alvin, serene, jenny...from mha
shan..fr hk

great people...whom i've got to know (even better) in SMU

econs dudes (too many to name) - kelvin, teckwee, jack, felix, dexter, wensi, geeyong, junbing, wenduan, MK, tianyu,kim...ahh really too many to name..
squash dudes - chuan lu, dennis, yixin, mich and more...
others - rz, gillian, nicole, clarissa, shouwen, qinlei, fenghong etc

some other frens who've helped me big time but i tink we kinda lost touch with each other liao :(

xinwei, eda, ivan teo, ronak, gordon, zhiwei, zhiyuan, max, zhimin, gerrie, yunwei, fabian, szetat, monghong, ariane, peggy, shuteng, sweehoon, chenghui, alison, danny, vincent, donald, lawrence, huipeng, jinjie...lots of mha colleagues and ex-bosses...
police squashers...
raffles squashers...
westcoast grc squashers...
christina, huafeng, shinn, zhuanquan from my acca classes


And the list goes on...it's amazing how so many people (and more) besides your family members can shape your life. To those whom i've lost touch with, i hope you're still kicking alive (heathier than ever), and pursuing your passion, your true love and all the great things you desire in life.

Cheers to all of you out there. thank you so much for making who i am...


~yj

Words women use...how true are they?

Got this fr an amusing slideshow that rz sent me....

WORDS WOMEN USE

1) "Fine!"
This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2) "Five minutes!"
If she is getting dressed, this is half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given 5 more mins to watch the game before helping around the house.

3) "Nothing!"
This is the calm before the storm. This means "something", and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with "Nothing" usually end in "Fine".

4) "Go ahead!"
This is a dare, not permission. Don't do it.

5) Loud sigh
This is not usually a word, but it is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A "Loud Sigh" means she thinks you're an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over "Nothing".

6) "That's ok!"
This is one of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to a man."That's okay" means that she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7) "Thanks!"
A woman is thanking you. Do not question it or faint. Just say you're welcome.

8) "Whatever!"
It's a woman's way of saying *!#@YOU!


So much about woman psychology...let me know if you have more observations.



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沒有人

Just came home to a house without a single soul....felt uniquely strange...cos there's always my papa's coughing comin fr his room or the flushing of toilet by my mom late at nite....but it's just silence in total, tonight.

mom's with papa at the hospital cos papa's warded after his surgery today and he couldn't do without my mom by his side...

it feels really uncomfortably weird having the whole house to yourself....and i felt this tinge of lonely sadness walkin in and out of my room, greeted by the stale air at home...that feeling when your loved ones are far away from you....

luckily there's still rz who's just a fonecall away...if not the nite is gonna be me, myself and I (and my audit revision notes of course)....thx rz!

looking forward to fetching mom and papa back fr hosp tmr....


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Song (4)

YOU DON'T KNOW ME
by ray charles (orig);
jann arden (cover)

You give your hand to me And then you say hello
And I can hardly speak My heart is beating so
And anyone can tell You think you know me well
But you don't know me

No you don't know the one Who dreams of you at night
And longs to kiss your lips Longs to hold you tight
Oh I am just a friend That's all I've ever been
Cause you don't know me

I never knew the art of making love
No my heart aches with love for you
Afraid and shy I let my chance go by
The chance that you might love me too

You give your hand to me And then you say goodbye
I watch you walk away beside the lucky guy
Oh you will never know The one who loves you so
Well you don't know me

You give your hand to me And then you say goodbye
I watch you walk away beside the lucky guy
Oh you will never know The one who loves you so
Cause you don't know me
Oh no you don't know me
OOhh...you don't know me


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music on my blog

not too difficult...thanks to Dr.Bacon from http://forums.digitalpoint.com/showthread.php?t=12881

just add in the code (post #10 on http://forums.digitalpoint.com/showthread.php?t=12881) somewhere in your script.

I guess if u wanna upload ur own song just find a place like geocities@yahoo or somewhere to park your files will do....

ok i know it's no big fat deal abt this..but hey, i'm a complete html-idiot and a bloggernoob...so just to share this with those who're as noob as me!!

haha.




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a sad piece of news...

he was just sitting at dr wong's clinic the other day, and this morning his picture appeared in the obituaries.

that was the first thing my mom broke to me shortly after i woke up...and she spoke in a kinda flustered voice "不要讓你的爸爸知道!"....that was a elderly gentleman by the name of mr.loke....i've never spoken to him b4...but we did exchange glances at dr.wong's clinic during my dad's chemo-days....he started his treatment a little later than my dad....and was usually accompanied to the clinic by his wife and daughter...

and all that i could recall when i saw him at the clinic last week suddenly became vivid flashblacks in my mind...i saw him ascend the weighing machine, had his blood pressure taken...was waiting for his consultation alone....he looked pale and weak....and somehow i didn't quite notice how much he had thinned since he's already a rather lanky man the first time i saw him at the clinic...chemo makes pple lose weight faster than marie-france-bodyline...and i didn't see any difference in him...i wonder why he was at the clinic alone last week...

my mom was speculating he might have collapsed because of complications in the side effects of his chemo, and no one was there to rescue him...maybe it's just cos his days were numbered fr the day he found out he had cancer....it all happened so fast...although we were complete strangers, i am shocked and saddened by someone whom i've brushed shoulders with..someone who was just sitting beside me at the clinic last week...and the next moment, he has left this world....and then it made me realize the same thing could happen to my dad if he wasn't fortunate enough to detect his cancer at an early stage...this is a piece of news that my dad should be kept away from...we don't want him to be saddened and affected by mr.loke's demise.

I'm beginning to wonder how it'd feel like to walk into dr.wong's clinic again...to see in the nurses eyes the unspoken yet known sadness of the demise of mr.loke...maybe they're already so used to seeing cancer patients come and go...

i believe mr.loke was a good husband and father...cos he had the face of a good familyman. His family and friends would definitely have appreciated the marks he'd left in one way or another in his entire lifetime, and would so dearly miss him from this day onwards. I hope he receives protection and true happiness at where his soul resides now, free of the troubles in the human world, and he and his family be blessed and bonded tightly together as one, in each of their hearts.

He was 67.


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A heartwarming sight

It is a sight that I will never forget...

6 out of my 7 aunties (六姨's at work) came to my house yesterday to visit my dad after they'd gone to my 外婆's place...erm actually it's 5 out of 6 ....i included my mom inside (duh!)...and 外婆 came along too! So the house was pretty crowded..lots of noise from all the laughter and bantering....

I was at the dining table drinking tea when 外婆 came along and sat beside me...she's 81 yrs old and already she's fraught with the common problems of old-age - poor vision, poor hearing, cannot walk properly, a bit disoriented, skin problems u name them. I couldn't really speak hokkien when I was younger...but somehow i managed to say something to 外婆....much more confident in speakin' hokkien to her after so much worldly exposure to this native language. But i gathered she really had trouble catching what i was saying cos of her bad hearing, so i let her do the talking.

And then 四姨 came over and joined in the talking as though she's trying to reconcile the conversation gap between 外婆 and me. And then 二姨 joined the table as well...and then 五姨 （my mom's #3 out of the 7)....and before i knew it, all 6 sisters were crowding round the table..some standing and some seated....and momentarily, I thought i saw 6 little girls and their mom round this very table where i was sitting at...all of them laughing and teasin' one another childishly...i felt as though i'd just caught a glimpse of a familiar image from 40 yrs ago.

I gave up my seat to one of my aunties and watched them talk from a distance. My mom, being the cheekiest among the sisters, took out a bottle of bird's nest tonic drink and presented it to 外婆 in the most amusing fashion and wished her happy mother's day. 外婆's eyes just circled her girls one round and continue sitting there in a daze, not knowing wad's going on. And then the laughter just went on and on and on....

These 7 ladies (and the missing auntie of course) saw each other thru' thick and thin, witness their beloved husband and father leave this world, saw one another's children as their own, and then continue to live by one another's lives in the spirit of their sisterhood. It's something out of date, a kindred spirit that has ceased to exist in our generation (let me know if you have that many siblings!)...

I really wished i had taken a black-and-white shot of that heartwarming sight at my dining table. It made all feel as if everyday's Mother's day...the kind of appreciation for someone special, someone who'd grown you from a seed to a tree...a kind of love that is timeless and stays with you for the rest of your life.



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Song (3) (personal dedication)

我等你

歌手：光良

不做考虑也没半点犹豫
我就说了这一句我等你
你眼中闪过了一些压抑
更多的是怀疑
所以你可以离去

不相信你还会回心转意
是我任性才决定要等你
我眼中的泪没掉过一滴
只是随你背影
慢慢倒流进心里

我等你
半年为期
逾期就狠狠把你忘记
不止是伤心的还包括一切甜蜜

要等你
要证明自己我可以纵容你在心底
也可以当你只是路过的人而已
慢慢倒流进心里底
哦~~~~~~~
你应该已经和他公开在一起

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When hopes are dashed...

Ok...i tot the hammers are relli gonna win at 90mins when Steven Gerrard hammered the hammers with a stunning power-whacking equalizer from 30 yards out....totally unexpected....i was like OMG-ing all the way until extra time finished with no additional goals.

And the westham penalty takers are no match against the liverpool ones....so 3-1 to liverpool's the final score... sad day for the hammers... they were 4 mins away from glory.

But one thing we must all admit, Steven Gerrard was God-like during yesterday's match...indeed a fine English player...

Let's de-whine...

Ok, feelin' much much better now...cos i won money at mahjong again...3rd time in a row with the same bunch of guys....hope i can always be this lucky...or am i jus too pro? haha...

And finally passed to my mom her M-day gift....here it is...



tot of getting a pair for myself actually...but it looks a little gay...haha.

& ok, let's not dewhine totally..something's just not right..liverpool's trailing westham in the FA Cup final right now...but as usual, i'll always support the underdoggies..so i hope westham wins...ha.. this is one of the rare occasions where i bother to sit down in front of the tv, flip to ch24 and watch a football match...mebbe i'm a jinx to liverpool...haha..but hope the westham wins.

a whiney entry....

Ok, i didn't say i'm not allowed to touch this blog even if it's meant to remain inactive from now until exams r over. You know why? Cos i'm its freakin' owner and nobody tells me what to do and what not to do.

Somehow, since i'm takin' too long a hiatus from smashing my squash racquets, i found this the best avenue to let loose all those frustrations that are making me explode. It's not that bad actually. I'm not in some utter state of depression that's close to wat i went thru' last december or something... perhaps just cooped up for too long at home doin' things i abso-fuckin-lutely don't enjoy.

And guess what, it's Mom's day tmr...i've got the gift ready and the dinner plans ready...but i blew things up when i snapped at my mom just now...yeah like minutes ago...abt how she keeps nagging at me and makin' me feel i'm the most useless flaccid prick attempting to stand upright (when its flaccid it doesn't stand) in this world....

Yeah, as of my current state of being, the 10 yr projection of my own life is that i'm relli gonna be 'the most useless flaccid prick attempting to stand upright (when its flaccid it doesn't stand) in this world'. And I'm too lazy to even worry about it now....what am gonna do abt it?...i'm gonna continue with my mahjong spree and lead my pathetic life as a spoilt brat...spoilt for how long? i don't know...until i can start doin' things on my own perhaps...like really doin' EVERYTHING on my own.

Ok, feelin' so much better now....



~too lazy to give another damn about myself anymore...

- Notice -

This blog shall remain inactive until further notice. Actually is my ACCA exams comin' la...gotta start full-steam mugging liao.

Gentlemen, start your engine!
心无杂念, 勇往直前!




~你也是一样...大家一起加油！

random picture

somehow this is one of my fav personal shots....

Vroom with a View

So the latest I'm reading now is actually quite a new book by Peter Moore. It's called Vroom With A View.

Overview from www.petermoore.net

After a late night Tai Bo fitness commercial warns him that his life will be over after 40, Peter decides to pursue a boyhood dream sparked by watching old black and white movies of Sophia Loren riding motor scooters. To putt-putt around Italy on a 1960’s Vespa, living the Dolce Vita.

Of course, it couldn’t be just any Vespa. With his fortieth birthday approaching, Peter wanted a bike as old as he was and in the same condition - a little rough around the edges, but still going OK.

Peter found the bike of his dreams on e-Bay Italy and after picking it up from Milan slowly made his way to Rome, seeing a side of Italy - and Italians - that others rarely see. All thanks to his Vroom with a View.



Perfect kind of trip for me definitely...Imagine riding a Vespa and trodding thru' endless fields of gold with the woman you love...ok i need to get my class 2 license first..haha...

Travel writings...

I can't remember when was it that I developed a liking for travel literature. No i'm not talking about those things that you can read on magazines or travel agency brochures, introducing some holiday ski trip or some beautiful beach resort. It's more like someone's personal account of a unique experience when he goes on travelling. And let's not restrict travelling to just leisure or holiday travelling. Travelling to me simply means trotting round the globe and seeing things beyond a certain radius from your home.

I used to buy books with many short stories about travelling in japan and then realized it's very narrow-minded to think that every road in this world is shaped like that in japan...so i indulge in other books that have the notion of travelling regardless of the book genre...could be The Alchemist in which the boy ventured across the desert, Catch Me If You Can which featured an intelligent faker pulling off as a PanAm pilot flying all over the world swindling everyone's money, The Da Vinci's Code with all the adventure circling round the famous landmarks...(yes, i'm lookin' forward to the movie..haha.)

I can't help but sometimes in the dead of the night or on an extremely serene & peaceful day, when i stand by my window, close my eyes and feel the breeze caress my skin, i feel like i'm teleported to another place..walking along the beach, on a jungle canopy, or caught in the middle of a human traffic jam...that groggy feeling of gettin drunk on foreign land.

I love travelling. I love the unexpected, the unknown and the surprises that one stumbles upon when he gatecrashes a foreign party. I love that dangerous world out there.

Read this from somewhere... The world is like a book. Those who do not travel only read the first page of the book.....

Very true indeed. Go on to the next page, and the next, and the next....and then you'll realize every page gives you a different pleasant surprise.

在星空下等待着流星雨的到来...

在很久很久以前，有一群流星掉落在地球上...
结果被 Silent Screamer 发现了...

仔细一看，

Silent Screamer 竟发现星群中有三种不同颜色的流星...
就把它们各自取名为...

希望

温暖













幸福

自从流星群的出现，Silent Screamer 的一生就从此改变了...
仿佛是仙女下凡来为他指引方向, 寻找生命中的答案...

所以，为了寻求更多答案，Silent Screamer 便昼夜守候在星空下,
静等着下一场流星雨的到来...

Song (2)

喜欢你

唱：陳潔儀 曲：梁文福 词：梁文福

喜欢你 给我你的外衣
让我像躲在你身体里
喜欢你 借我你的梳子
让我用柔软头发吻你

喜欢你 车窗上的雾气
仿佛是你的爱在呼吸
喜欢你 那微笑的眼睛
连日落也看作唇印

我喜欢这样跟着你
随便你带我到哪里
我的脸 慢慢贴近
明天也慢慢地慢慢清晰
我喜欢你爱我的心
轻触我每根手指感应
我知道 它在诉说着你承诺言语

Stop being a quitter....

How many times have you told yourself this, "ok if i'm not gonna succeed this time round, i'm not gonna do it again..." ?

I think unless backed by good reasons, it's really quite a personal disgrace to not-finish the race, a let down or something.... And when you breathe in this disgrace, it's more of a self-denial of inability cos of big ego and some inferior complex mixed together. Oh c'mon, don't throw the towel...if you can do it again, just do it again!

There is only 1 ultimate winner and 3 medals to vie for in every sporting event. Does it mean 997 out of 1000 marathoners will choose not to cross the finishing line becos they can't clinch e top-3 positions anyway? Lance Armstrong was a 7-time Tour De France winner, but what pushed him to beat one more cyclist in every subsequent race is his never-say-quit attitude. It's a learning experience afterall.

I can think of so many instances of myself at the quit-or-don't-quit decisionmaking crossroad...when i failed my driving test, when i failed 2 ACCA modules, when i didn't have time to practise my organ and guitar, when i didn't have the discipline to complete my fitness regime, when I said i've no time to play squash, when my first relationship turned out to be a total disaster....... I think there're a few things which i did quit permanently...haha..and i dont' foresee doing them ever again...

I think for some, I chose to quit because I simply couldn't develop any passion or interest in it whether or not i have the talent...Passion and Talent...shall talk abt it another day... If my reason to quit is cos I really have no interest in it, I guess i should be spared if i can channel the energy to something else which i can call my passion. However, if i had chosen to quit cos of procrastination, laziness, lack of discipline, or just plain fear of admitting defeat...in retrospect, i won't forgive myself. A lot of times, it's not about one's ability to achieving something, but rather his attitude towards achieving it..quite general..but there're so many specific examples to prove this point. Too often, we give excuses like "no-time", "no-money", "t00-tired", "i have more impt things to do" to mask up all those regressive attitudes.

It's time to sit down, get yourself more task-driven (task: something mandatory that you can't avoid), more passion-seeking (passion: intense, driving, or overmastering feeling or conviction and ardent affection for something), choose the right path, walk that direction and don't look back.


~yj

Making decisions...

Making decisions is basically just about weighing the costs and benefits of the outcome of the decisions. It's about attaching a certain level of risk to the uncertainty that follows each decision. Whether you are risk-seeking, risk-averse or risk-neutral, I guess there is a general framework or rule of thumb for making any decision whether it's plain frivolous or life-threatening...

Very simply, ask yourself the following three questions:


1) Can you live up to your own moral conscience if you take on the decision?
2) Are you being fair to yourself and other parties affected by the outcome of your decision?
3) Is there greater pleasure or greater displeasure in taking on the decision?


I think if you have the answers to these 3 questions, whatever type of decision it is, it should more or less be the right path. But again, this is my personal quick-decisionmaking thought process. If the decision is something that really requires you to do a net present value analysis or formulate some incomprehensible risk calculations, do it then. But before that, you should ask yourself the 3 questions again whether or not there is a need to be so calculative in weighing the costs and benefits.

It prolongs your life when you can keep things short and simple sometimes.